The message I received

This week I come to you from a place of emotional exhaustion. I went on a magical 4 day course over the weekend but it pushed me to my emotional limits. I feel like I have been rinsed and wrung. So, when it came to writing to you today I felt a little lost on what to write. My mind is just trying to work through what happened. I don’t have newsletters backed up. I write them weekly in-line with my heart.

At the end of one of the days I sat feeling a weight of sadness around me. We were finishing with a sharing circle and I said I was frustrated. I was sad. I was unable to let go of the trauma which rose and sat in my heart chakra. It still sits there heavy and embedded.

I cried…I was feeling exhausted yet unfulfilled. Why is this still residing in my body? Why could I not let it go fully and have the full release I so desperately needed. Such release would allow me to go forward in new and wonderful ways.

The group let me know it was OK. They encouraged me to see how far I had come in the 3 days with the release.

We finished and everyone had shared. The group were about to get up and leave when the quieter member of the group asked if she could say something to me.

Her exact words will be mixed but her words meant more than I can express:

“I just want to say something to you Naomi- if that’s OK? I wanted to say that when you walked into the room on Friday you were full of confidence. You are funny, so on point with your humour. You are quick- incredibly quick and sharp. You have a beautiful home, three beautiful children and a loving husband. When you have been sharing your stories with us and after seeing the release you went through yesterday- I cannot believe that you are the same person. You are so strong, so brave, so wonderful. I am in awe of you.”

I broke down. I sobbed in a way I cannot describe.

I couldn’t believe that someone who has only been with me for 36 hours would sit and share this with me. That another woman would feel so much love in her heart that she would be prepared to open up to me and share this love in such a raw way.

I have never stopped to listen. I have never taken on another’s words in the same way I did right there and then.

Reaching over I hugged her as tightly as I could.

The interesting thing was that I felt the same about her and the stories she had shared. We were aligned in so many ways and had some similar experiences.

I shared this.

This weekend I left emotionally drained but full of love.

I drove down the m25 with tears pouring and the utter disbelief around what happened over the 4 days.

A few months back I was channeling through my hand and at the end of the journalling I wrote this:

“I am here to rise above and be the light. I am here to rise above and not be the damaged one but be me- Naomi Joanna Gale- the person who has immense strength and can do whatever I fucking want to do. I deserve it because I am better than those who abused their position and tried to emotionally torture me. I deserve better than this…to be a better, stronger mother, wife and guidance.”

Then suddenly it switched to ‘you’:

“You deserve everything you work for because you have constantly tried to do your best for everyone and been ignored and purposefully damaged.”

To then be aligned with this course and this person. To be face to face with almost a mirror and to be told the above was one of the most intense experiences of my life.

I challenge you today to be that mirror for yourself. To give yourself some self-love or even- go out and give someone else some love instead because you never know what you may receive in return and it may be just what you needed to hear.

Naomi x

PS one will not be perking one’s tits up this week as one has been on a course and I am about to go on another so one will be back next week for said perking. xxx